+ 0 - 1 | § ¶Seriously, wtf
Somewhere between confused and depressed, I had to happy-face yesterday. Not really an issue at work today, where they're all introverts- They only pay attention if you ask them to. Yesterday, friends I hadn't seen in too long- two of them, independant of eachother. Couldn't raincheck. Couldn't be miserable. Dug deep and remembered how to be a duck on the pond.
Today, though... Compound the chemical washout with relationship woes, toss in potential food poisoning at a bad taco place and possibly an eye infection caught from the boss. Chop up some anxiety, add half a stick of angst, and throw a heaping fuckspoon of murphy's law on top. Pour it all into a monday, and cook me 'till I look done.
-Alex
+ 0 - 1 | § ¶Weekends
Yesterday was Paul's birthday party.
Got high, ate really good waffles. Got high, played lasertag. Got high, ate dinner.
You might have noticed a recurring theme. Yeah, I said "ate". Twice.
It was a really good day, the world had been starting to bear down on me in the deay-today, so it was nice to disappear for several hours and... eat a lot.
Today, however, is heinous and bad. Capital B, corresponding "ad". Sort of hate the timing. Not because it kills a weekend or any lame reason like that, but I feel like my ability to process it all has been damaged by yesterday's festivities. It feels wholly wrong that way, it's pretty significant, but I'm 5 steps behind, and expected to provide feedback. All I know is that I'm sad on a large, familier scale, but I don't really have the energy to describe it right now. I just... I dunno. Cue the power penguin, I guess.
-Alex